Counting weeks

Nick deployed a week ago. I find myself currently living week by week. I am counting weeks completed of this deployment (currently 1) and weeks with my baby's development (currently 15) Mostly I am hoping to stop counting deployment weeks before I stop counting baby development weeks.

Things are going well, considering. I do get sad on occasion. Nick and I both feel we really didn't give one another a proper 6 month g'bye. I was so sick that day, as in pulling off the highway sick. We were sitting in the military airport parking lot and Nick said "I really need to go, can you give me a hug?" It was pretty terrible. Crying certainly wasn't helping me feel any better. We barely kissed, but definitely hugged. He felt horrible having to go, but of course I understood. I ended up taking that day off work and spending it on the couch with Haley.

The hardest thing is staying strong when others can be so judgmental. I constantly hear "I couldn't do what you do" Well, thankfully I'm not asking you to! I try to just brush it off, but when you're emotional that is hard to do!

My friends and family, near and far, have been great. I definitely do have a wonderful support system. I have faith that all will be fine in the end. Stressing and worrying about the "what-ifs" isn't good for the baby or me. If nothing else, I will have the doctor and nurses to get me through the labor. Nick is going to try and fly home when they arrive in port in Pearl Harbor, if possible. That will buy us about a week, if we're lucky. Which without knowing a return date that may or may not be helpful.

Basically everything is up in the air, but as I said I have faith. Haley is an amazing personal pregnancy trainer. She makes sure to get me to eat (mostly because her treats are kept in the kitchen, since Nick isn't here to gain the sympathy weight she has taken up the responsibilty) as well she barks to remind me to get off my butt and go for our daily walk.

Here's to the next 25 weeks.

**I apologize to having no pics, but I have vowed not to take any belly bump pics until I pick up my mama at the airport in a week and a half. I want to surprise here with my growth. LOL